Haha, the frist date.

There is only one thing going on recently,

Getting to know my Lord more and more.

Know more of His plan for me.

What to do with my life.

Where to go next.

Who to meet.

All into His Hands :)

「追憶之瞳驀然又張開，流浪半生，在浮沉中等待，輪迴般意外，幕起一刻，方知故事修完又修，更改又更改。

也許蒼天早放棄劇情，角色與對白，只東湊西搵拼，時間對，人物錯，人物對，地點錯，對對錯錯追追逐逐迷失於聲光中。

也許眼睛已看不清澈，悲劇與喜劇，叫人輾轉難明，愛情真，緣份假，緣份真，命運假，追憶之瞳最終只看到一場夢。」

亦舒《有時他們回家》

It been a while, but I finally going out again, smiling again.

Just a causal dinner, a glass of red wine, a decent Italian dinner, some laugh and sharing.

If I just put it down and walk away. He doesn't even want to make the effort.

It's time to let you go, so I can be free.

It been month.

There were so much thinking, understanding, acceptting, crying and laughing.

But No More Waiting. I been waiting so long,  nights and days. I'm not going to start waiting again.

Everyday pass, I'm one step away.  Eventaually, I'll be free from my own mind, from the memory, from that night.

Brendan said  we did  the most right thing possible in that situation. Stop ourselves before we let go and make thing complicated, with the best interest of our friendship & relationship in mind.

We made a choice.

遠去歸來已一個月了，提不神來記錄太多事。

在腦內翻翻滾滾的都是那幾天，如果不是還有相片為証，還以為我只去了那麼一個地方。

清楚知道唯有放下忘記才能繼續向前走，但口說一回事，做出來的又是另一個樣子。可恨。

但我發現把生活妥妥當當的編成一個時間表，有助我解困，

工作

教會

瑜伽

休息

把生活簡化，集中心思意念，只有一兩個好友的談話，不用長篇大論的說太多，解釋太多。我的生命不會是別人眼中的故事料子。自己鼓盡勇氣的行動只會和真正知心的人說，已經說得太多。

是時候靜下來。退一步的給自己空間喘口氣。